My Beloved Olympus (2)

My Olympus Camera. Never forget your first true love
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Your First True Love

Lesson 2 and My Olympus

Do you remember your first love? I am not speaking of your first fling, but of your first true love. While studying engineering, I fell in love with corrosion engineering and wanted to do my PhD in corrosion. If everything had gone my way, then I would have flown to the USA, studied, and become a professor or joined a company to continue my research in this field. I can speculate but, maybe my life’s path would have diverged from the world of photography.

A few years back, when I made this comment on Merilee Mitchel’s site, she replied and said photography would have found me. She is an excellent photographer, and you will find her at The Gravel Ghost.

I stumbled upon photography quite by accident. While I loved corrosion engineering and did everything possible to maximize the possibility of achieving my ambition, I didn’t go all the way. Yes: I could have, I should have, and I would have. But I didn’t. That’s why I ended up in the industry, and that’s why I set off a chain of events leading me to photography.

Photography & Storytelling

First Love

I didn’t realize it, but photography is my first true love. My roots lie in black & white photography and street photography. If I am going to be truly honest with myself, then I must realize my primary skills in photography lie in street and travel photography, then in landscape work. When I combine this with the narrative I enjoy writing, I create something I feel happy to put out into the world.

An Intermission

As I type this, I discovered I hadn’t saved it earlier, so I am crafting this post again.

Yes, I remember now where I left off earlier.

The Boot on My Bum

When my corporate bosses decided they were tired of me, they booted me out of their halls. I remember my anger at their behavior, and this stayed with me for a long time. However, when I informed a few partners of my imminent departure, one of them congratulated me, saying I was too independent and creative for the corporate world.

I confess I didn’t appreciate what he said that day because I seethed from the manner of my abrupt departure. My achievements did not matter. All that mattered was my boss’s impression and his incompetence.

The Maze of Confusion

The Maze

Therefore, when I left, I was determined to become a consultant and didn’t focus on photography and storytelling. However, I also did not see my growing irrelevance to my previous world, where your business card determines your worth. During the next period of my life, I read many motivational, inspirational, and entrepreneur-focused literature. Even though I perused literature advising me to focus on ‘the one thing’ and applauded the Russian proverb which advised me that the man who chases two rabbits catches none.

All this time, my first true love seemed buried underneath a mass of confusion. In addition, as I chased two impossible dreams, I was conscious of my past status as a senior corporate executive. This is an impossible burden for anyone to carry and one day, I threw it off.

Freedom

During the lockdown imposed on us two years ago, I started writing a journal. Over the last two years, this has become a part of my daily routine. I also write, in longhand, every day and I find this helpful.

One day, a month ago, I slapped my head and asked me what I was doing with my life. All my past conversations with my family and a few good friends came back and hit me hard. I doubt Mike Tyson could punch me harder, and I rocked.

It was at this moment when I dumped all pretensions of becoming a consultant. I realized I had wandered through a foggy maze of my making and carried a weight no one asked me to lift.  

Whilst at lunch a few weeks back, I photographed a corporate tower, which looked like a prison from the outside. It looked like a panopticon, and I sent the image to my good friend and amazing photographer, Jenny Cameron. When I sent the image, I misquoted Edgar Allan Poe, with the line, “Quoth the Raven, Nevermore”.

Find your first true love, nourish it, and it will reward you. In conclusion, that’s all I can say.


Commercial Break

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If You Want To Go Back

The first Olympus post is here. And my alternative biography is here.

I don’t usually use pink in anything. But, my good friend and talented designer Michelle loves it, so I decided to make her happy!



Published by Rajiv

I have been around the block a bit. I've lived in four countries, and in many parts of my country. I have been fortunate enough to meet some really good people, and some really lousy ones, all of whom have taught me much. I am passionate about photography, writing, Indian history and continuing on this grand journey towards death.

2 thoughts on “My Beloved Olympus (2)

  1. Narayan Kaudinya – Hi, I am Narayan Kaudinya. And i welcome you on this journey, the Road to Nara ! I am an Ethnographer and a practicing Indologist. I did my masters in History and further learnt Sanskrit, Yoga and Nerve-therapy. At 24, pushing most academic sounding, office sitting works away, i felt compelled to know and understand the world and my country, Bharat/India. I travelled, and as it happened i took up teaching in Kashmir and further up in the remote villages of Baltistan in the foothills of Karakoram Ranges. For around three years and many states later there came a time when i felt that it was only while teaching i learnt how to laugh, to see, feel, breathe, love and cry -with children, and mostly resource-less parents in the harshest-freezing border conditions. I write, and work as a documentary photographer and Filmmaker, with numerous published, exhibited and some awarded stories. In my travels and life i have let nature lead me, the divine mother, and as a Yogin, my resolve here is to share my experiences and thoughts as honestly, and through them to blossom in everyone the power and possibility in pursuing your breath, that you seek your true nature with courage and curiosity. Here, on this road i will share my spirit, my love for nature, the elements of life that are us. And in doing so, i'll be happy to see you along.
    Narayan Tushar Kaudinya says:

    Thank you for writing Rajiv. It led me to invite myself to your site. Its more a journey and i am happy to come along. I have been a documentary photographer working on long narratives and photo books. But talking about love’s here then that is asbsolutely writing. Even though i could invest most of my time in observing, seeing and it was just because i could photograph.

    Thank you for coming over. Verrier Elwin, what a man he must have been!

    Narayan x

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